Come unto me, all you who are weary and carrying heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take up my yoke and learn from me; for I am gentle and humble-hearted, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden light. Matthew 11:28-30
What do you leave behind for those coming after you?
As I grow down, creaking and groaning,
I find my (much-diminished) self,
ever-closer to the ground.
Bent a bit,
and increasingly inclined
to question rather than resolution,
I am more at home
with the lyrical than the literal
in any and everything: rhyme without reason.
Truth, that once seemed
to fit so neatly
into my travelling haversack,
seems so much larger,
that I can no longer
get my heart, let alone my arms, around it.
Still, wisdom comes to visit,
gracing my committed incoherence
with room enough for wonder and woe to cohabit.
As tears flow more readily than reasons,
explanations evade me for the monstrous misery I witness;
swept away in a deluge of compassion.
What to tell my dear, growing-up children,
after over half a century of wondering and wandering;
looking back more frequently than ahead?
It sounds so simple and simply too hard;
that love is where they came from
and all that keeps us going.
as we live in the light and the love of those
who came before us…
…we will be remembered
in the way others still live, and still live on, in our love. David Whyte
And, with the evaporation of absolutes
in the harsh light of mercy,
judgement and dogma dissolve.
Though I can’t quite put my finger on it,
I think, somewhere I must have surrendered;
lost or let go these last illusions of control.
How frightening, to be so free;
co-responsible for everything, yet in charge of nothing.
Could this be
the uncharted territory I always sought,
while playing in the safe confines of the sandpit?
What now remains— last and lasting—
before the long slumber envelops for good what stood for me.
Now, daily to marry grateful wonder with woe,
and find, in that blessed arrangement, stepping-stones
to help in my stumbling toward the wholeness called well-being.
May it be so for you, fellow pilgrim,
as you make your way home,
much more deeply into here; far less concerned with hereafter.
And in your seeking, may you be found
and found out, as a wise fool, whose supple heart,
cleaved by loss and love, may never close to mercy and mystery.
Rest and be thankful!