In the dark before dawn, he awoke and went into the wilds to pray.Mark 1:35-37
Simon and his companions sought him out and finding him said,
‘Everyone is looking for you.’
What are you looking for in this fresh and fragile new year?
On the cusp of a year brand-new,
we wonder what to hold and what to let go;
means and mindsets that need to die, so newness now can grow.
Names and faces in hallowed memoriam held;
losses that will never leave us, lashed to our regret;
lessons we cannot afford to ignore or too quickly forget.
Upon this weathered threshold,
we dare not wish away
a past, now part of us, that brought us to brink of day.
They are what saves the world: who choose to growMary Oliver, On Winter’s Margin
Thin to a starting point beyond this squalor
For we must believe in beginnings,
resist the draw to replicate or retain
previous patterns, expectations and well-practiced distain.
In mind and mode, already things have changed,
hopefully so will we.
For a start to be new and fresh, we really must break free.
Often we embark with committed resolve,
which quickly dissipates and leaves
as we fold back into the familiar that readily deceives.
What we call the beginning is often the endT. S. Eliot, Little Gidding
And to make and end is to make a beginning.
The end is where we start from.
In policy and practicality,
what must we bring to an end,
so we might at least start to make amends?
Will we listen hard to injustice at the root,
reject rampant falsehood, face our fears within
to bravely embrace a wider truth so reconciling might begin?
Will we loose spirited imagination not ours,
to revise, renew and creatively restore
the scoured face of earth, scorched, parched and sore?
Life is not hurryingR. S. Thomas
on to a receding future, nor hankering after
an imagined past. It is the turning
aside like Moses to the miracle
of the lit bush …
Though we may lack capacity
to realize what begs to be done,
still, can we decide who we each intend to become.
Reshaping community and beyond,
will require of us “good trouble”
to fins a pathway clear through all the smoke and rubble.
So in this dark before dawn
let wild soul searching start
for the Christ we must reclaim when our world is torn apart.